The Search for Information

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So much input…so little understanding. If only there were an information desk where we could find out everything we need to know about Covid-19.

We all want to understand, to get control of this microscopic virus and to live the life we all took for granted until a few weeks ago. A new reality is beginning to dawn on us, and we haven’t come to terms with it yet.

It’s difficult to find out what is actually happening when the news reports sensational cases – one day last week I was treated to multiple stories of unusually severe corona virus cases; not helpful – infectious disease experts are preparing us for worst case scenarios and the government is trying to keep a lid on selfish and panicked behavior.

The future is unknown.

Of course, the future is always unknown, but in a stable world we think we know what will happen tomorrow with a fair degree of certainty. Not now. We have been humbled by the realization that we simply don’t know what tomorrow, next week or next month will bring.

The last time I felt this way was right after I was diagnosed with cancer. I was stunned, and I wanted information.

I was desperate to know. The doctor didn’t have detailed pathology of my biopsy yet and I had an appointment with him a week or two in the future. Eternity. I made the mistake of searching the internet for helpful clues. I wanted to know what my chances were, what the treatment would be, if I would need chemotherapy, and all I learned is that every case is different. The doctors eventually answered my questions, but responses came in pieces and it took time.

What I remember most profoundly from those days are the comforting messages I received from the Lord. That may sound weird, but I wrote the following in my journal the day after  Dan and I drove through a random blizzard on our way to the first doctor’s appointment:

His way is in the whirlwind and the storm, and the clouds are the dust of his feet. Nahum 1:3

“God stirs things up, sometimes, in a whirlwind or a storm. That’s his way. Driving through that snowstorm last night was so symbolic of how I feel. Visibility was poor, we had to drive slowly or we would have spun out of control.

I don’t know what’s around the next bend in the road – we can only see what’s right in front of us. And we have to move slowly and carefully – it’s slippery.

But the snow shower was brief and, in a way, beautiful.”

What are the odds that I would read Nahum 1:3, of all things, the day after we drove through a blinding ten minute snow storm? Slim. Very slim. I believe God wanted me to notice and apply it to my situation.

Another passage that I believe was given specifically to me during my treatment was:

But now, this is what the Lord says – he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: ‘Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name; you are mine. When you pass through the waters, I will be with you; and when you pass through the rivers, they will not sweep over you. When  you walk through the fire, you will not be burned; the flames will not set you ablaze. For I am the Lord, your God, the Holy one of Israel, your Savior.’ Isaiah 43:1-3

My brother and sister-in-law and my pastor independently stopped over to pray with us the day or two before my surgery, and they both said that they had been led to Isaiah 43:1-3. That was no coincidence. I memorized that passage and mentally repeated it every day throughout treatment.

When I watched chemicals drip into my veins, I reminded myself that rivers would not sweep over me. During radiation treatments, I remembered that I would not be burned.

Those experiences help me to face each day during this pandemic with confident faith. Isaiah’s words to Israel are true for all believers. Fear not. He has redeemed us. He will be with us. He is our Savior.

Yes, I want information about this virus and the impact it will have on people I know and love, our communities, our economy and our medical systems, but God generally doesn’t tell us those sorts of things. What he does tell us is what he told me daily during my cancer episode: Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have summoned you by name, you are mine.

Is that enough? For now, it will have to be. When we step back and consider what is ultimately important, I believe it is enough.

Has the Lord been speaking to you during these surreal days? If so, we’d love to hear it!

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4 Responses to The Search for Information

  1. Linda Ostrand says:

    Dearest Judy,

    My soul has cried out both literally and figuratively from mediating on your post… Surreal is the right word.

    It is interesting to me that, like you, God had brought me back to remembering a time of great trial — the loss of my first son — as I walk and lead through these unknown days. Your words and the Father’s words are an extreme comfort to me and a reminder to keep my eyes on Him. He is the author and perfector of my faith and my story (our story) had not been written yet!

    I will hide Isaiah’s words in my heart as well… My soul needs it… I am an essential worker leading a team if people to serve the public each day.

    Fear not for I have overcome the world!

    Love, peace and blessings to you Judy…

    • Judy says:

      Linda, I suspect we’re not alone in remembering difficult times. It’s so helpful to remember how God got us through, isn’t it? Yes, He has overcome the world!
      I’m praying for God’s protection on all essential workers as you continue to work, to show love and to serve this world as you have been called.
      Love, peace and blessings back to you, Linda!

  2. Cathy Twito says:

    I have loved the prayers of St Paul in his letters to the Thessalonians. One in particular has been a springboard for prayer these last couple days. “Now may the Lord of peace HIMSELF give you peace at all times in every way. ” 2 Thessalonians 3:16 (emphasis mine, of course.)
    Great post, Judy! You are indeed a gifted writer with much to say. Keep saying it. Acts 22:14-15 hit me freshly recently. May the words spoken to Paul be for you as well. May you know His will, see Him, and hear His voice, and then be a witness of what He has given you in those times of knowing, seeing, and hearing.

    • Judy says:

      Thank you for that beautiful verse, Cathy, and I love your emphasis. It’s amazing when I think of all the people who need Jesus HIMSELF to be their peace at all times in every way every minute of every day, and He is. We all need his peace in different ways, but he knows what they are and meets us exactly where we benefit most.
      And thank your for your encouragement, Cathy, it’s so nice to hear from you!
      Love and peace to you and yours,
      Judy

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