Do you ever have this thought: Who do I think I am that I could _______? Fill in the blank with your strongest desire, and then ask yourself who is stopping you from fulfilling it. If you’re like me, you will discover that you have been limiting yourself. That is not a comforting thought.
Maybe it’s too late to fulfill my desire.
When I was in my twenties, I’m embarrassed to admit, I didn’t know what I wanted out of life. I rarely thought ahead of the next weekend. (See Mr. Magoo years.) As I have grown spiritually, I have discovered my strongest desire.
Now I wonder if it’s too late. I have to allow for the possibility that I missed my opportunity. The culture certainly reinforces that notion.
However, I take hope in the fact God is not bothered by minor details like timing. In fact, when we realize that we cannot achieve our desires ourselves, that we’ve missed our best opportunity, that we desperately need his help, and we ask God for assistance, then he just might come through.
Maybe I’ve misunderstood my calling
This is a little trickier. I may desire to serve in areas for which I am not well equipped.
There’s really only one way to find out if this is the case: try it. I would rather have lived my life trying to fulfill my earnest desires than get to the end of life with the realization that I gave up.
That is easy to say and quite hard to do. I’m trying to try. It sounds silly, but to break out of ‘business as usual’ is difficult. Who knows, maybe God will give me skill and experiences that will fill in what I had previously lacked.
God’s Call: Learn to overcome the negative voices.
If I have dealt with the first two possibilities and am still convinced that my desire is from God, then I must learn to conquer the negativity in my head.
Don’t listen to yourself; talk to yourself.
The only way I know to do this is to constantly fill my head with God’s Word. God’s Word is true. It will not lead me to places that I cannot go. It can be misunderstood, but with a sincere desire to hear from God it is trustworthy.
When I have prayed or recited God’s Word, my thinking becomes sharper and more positive. Then I can see more clearly if my desire is God’s call. If so, God’s Word also gives me courage to continue to pursue my strongest desire.
“Do not conform to the pattern of this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind.” Romans 12:2
Have you ever talked yourself out of doing something that you now wish you had done? It might not be too late.